It's been quite some time since I've posted anything on here. I wish I could say I've been extremely busy with exploring and what not, but that's just not the truth. Life in Korea has become--much like the current weather here--cold and gloomy. Now, that's not to say I dislike it here, it simply means that the students have become restless, the teachers have lost all hope that they'll ever get their sanity back, and the weather just sucks. All of the things combined make for not-so-interesting blog posts.
The past month has been quite difficult, what with the holidays and such. Being away from family does not get easier as the months go on. A lot of negative thoughts have encompassed my thoughts and I found myself acting more like a grandma than a 24 year old. I feel life slipping away, but it doesn't bother me. I genuinely prefer sitting alone watching Friends episodes and making homemade popcorn (surprisingly that didn't happen tonight). I guess the reason I'm writing this reflection is to formulate into words how I've been feeling and if I plan to do anything about these feelings. As stated earlier, I am 24. In the grand scheme of things, I am still young. I surely don't want to look back on this experience or life with thoughts of negativity or regret. Sometimes things happen that we can't control and sometimes things happen that we can. My degree of happiness is 100% something that is in my control.
Since Christmas and the New Year are quickly approaching, it would be appropriate to say thank you to all of the people who genuinely care for me and my happiness. Your love and support have helped me in the past and I know will help me in the future. Although this seems to have been a horribly sad post, I'd like to think of it as a wake up call. Nothing nor no one has as much control over your situation or happiness as you may think. I still have eight (or so) months left of this journey, I think I'd like to make it a good one.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Stay true, stay real.
H.
